The Unknown

I'm a horrible writer, i should be a good writer i mean I'm a girl and girls should just know how to journal...but nope not me...i love reading every one's blogs. I love Maggie's random bible studies and Brits thoughts on well everything...Oh and Sera's wonderful pictures that she post's all the time. But me well i guess i just don't have much to say well at least write anyway....you all know I'm a good talker....lol.
I have this huge decisions to make very soon and well regardless of what i decide its kind of not in my hands anyway. Have you ever felt like that? Sometimes i don't like having to depend on somebody else to get what i want. I want to be able to do it on my own but i cant so i just have to suck it up and deal with it. I guess not have much of a childhood has made me into a very dependant and sometime pretty stubborn woman. Its in His hands and no matter which way the wind blows i will i will be sailing in God's boat so it will be okay all of it...
Erik is leaving in a week...makes my heart break at the thought of not seeing him everyday. I know that is we can get through this it will make us so much stronger as a couple. But still its scary finding love and then having to let it go and just trusting that God is completely and utterly in control no matter what. I made the mistake in my first serious relationship of not trusting man and not God but not this time. MY heart is nicely tucked away in Christ. I really have my friends to thank for that they sure are keeping me grounded and i am SOOOOO excited to spend the next 6 months of my life with them....
Ahhhh okay enough with this writing...back to work...