**I LoVe HiM**

The Unknown

I'm a horrible writer, i should be a good writer i mean I'm a girl and girls should just know how to journal...but nope not me...i love reading every one's blogs. I love Maggie's random bible studies and Brits thoughts on well everything...Oh and Sera's wonderful pictures that she post's all the time. But me well i guess i just don't have much to say well at least write anyway....you all know I'm a good talker....lol.
I have this huge decisions to make very soon and well regardless of what i decide its kind of not in my hands anyway. Have you ever felt like that? Sometimes i don't like having to depend on somebody else to get what i want. I want to be able to do it on my own but i cant so i just have to suck it up and deal with it. I guess not have much of a childhood has made me into a very dependant and sometime pretty stubborn woman. Its in His hands and no matter which way the wind blows i will i will be sailing in God's boat so it will be okay all of it...
Erik is leaving in a week...makes my heart break at the thought of not seeing him everyday. I know that is we can get through this it will make us so much stronger as a couple. But still its scary finding love and then having to let it go and just trusting that God is completely and utterly in control no matter what. I made the mistake in my first serious relationship of not trusting man and not God but not this time. MY heart is nicely tucked away in Christ. I really have my friends to thank for that they sure are keeping me grounded and i am SOOOOO excited to spend the next 6 months of my life with them....
Ahhhh okay enough with this writing...back to work...

Climbing a tree in a skirt....Its what i do best :)

my 25lbs Baby!!!

Me and my Mamma

Old Dance Pic

SO way back when i use to do Tap, acrobatics and modern dancing. It was prolly some of the best years of my child hood. I have to this day some of the bestest friends ever from then. My dance teacher got a facebook and found me, she posted this picture!!! Haha we all look so awkard!! Oh those growing years!!

Hillson United

Wow what a night of Worship!! God is so real people!!! Just to think that when we get to heaven its going to be a bizillion times better than the hillsong concert lost night and the concert last night was probably one of the BEST concerts i have EVER been to! God reminded me last night to continue to pray steadfastly for this country i live in. It is one of the most powerful nations on this planet and if we "Christians" continue to pray GOD can do amazing things! Even when things around us seem so horrible we must still pray pray pray, do you know why we must pray? Because prayer changes things. If you don't believe me try it!! I challenge you!!
Something the pastor last night said touched my heart in a new way he said
The bible is the word of God and with our faith it becomes the LIVING word!!! Wow.....is all i can say from last night....
I don't deserve the love that HE poured down on me at all!! Thank you Jesus!!!

Moving AGAIN

So I'm moving yet again to Irvine. My room mate and her husband had to move back to her mom's home to save some money so that meant i had to find a new place. It was awesome because for the first time i was content i wasn't scared or nervous i was okay with where ever the Lord led. I started praying about a place and asking the Lord for a place for me to live and to live for awhile. He answered my prayers of COURSE. And not only did he find me a place he found me two places and i got to choose where i wanted to live. It was super hard to decide as the first place was beautiful, safe, great neighborhood, a huge room with a kitchen area just for me, my own bathroom, cable, wi-fi, and to top it all off a South African family!! WHO could as for more right, well the next day i found another place with none of those amenities but i would live like 5 min away from one of my bestest friends in the entire world!!! Arrgggg right!! I felt sick to my tummy having to decide but i ended up with the Irvine place. I hate that I'm gonna be far from her but i know that this is where God wants me and its not like I'm gonna see her any less....hahah my room is so big now she could probably move in with me!! Needless to say God is always faithful and will always meet our needs even if its in a way that we didn't think it should happen....I'm more blessed than i could ever deserve!!!

makes my heart melt!!!

**LOVE * LOVE * LOVE**

I am so excited for SUMMER!! Its ridiculous....i dint know why i mean its gonna be the same summer as last year...just work work work....and the beach on the weekends. I guess this year i just feel grown up i know that sounds silly but i do like i can go out and do what i want whenever i want. Not that its been any different that last couple of years, but i just feel grown up....(some of my friends would love to disagree) you know who u are!!!
Finally i have a doctors appointment for my shoulder on the 10th. I am really praying that all this pain and suffering from the last couple of years can just disappear, although I'm sure its still going to take time, but at least now i have insurance so i don't have to stress money!! God is so faithfull....
Who would of thought that i would be living in Southern Cali by my self have a car paid off a great job with really good benefits and the best friends in the whole wide world. I am speechless when it comes to HIS grace and mercy. ALL TO HIM I OWE!!!
I am being so blessed by Saturday night's worship and Study, its weird becuase i never thought that i would get to this place in my life where my heart is so content in HIM. I will enjoy the down time with Him becuase i know more trials will come and if it causes me to grow even more in HIM then i want to go through it with Christ!!! I love Jesus!!!

Taylor James Duncan Born 3/16/09

Oh my gosh i am the most excited aunty EVER!!! I couldn't be more proud of my brother Simon. He really has turned his life around and become a man and for that i love him even more!!! I couldn't ask for a better big brother.

**Thank you my Jesus**

Wounded and forsaken
I was shattered by the fall
Broken and forgotten
Feeling lost and all alone
Summoned by the King
Into the Master’s courts
Lifted by the Savior
And cradled in His arms

I was carried to the table
Seated where I don’t belong
Carried to the table
Swept away by His love
And I don’t see my brokenness anymore
When I’m seated at the table of the Lord
I’m carried to the table
The table of the Lord

Fighting thoughts of fear
And wondering why He called my name
Am I good enough to share this cup
This world has left me lame
Even in my weakness
The Savior called my name
In His Holy presence
I’m healed and unashamed

You carried me, my God
You carried me

**Leeland**

So much for last night!!!!

Okay so last night I got a flat tire!!! I was at the logos building going to the main sanctuary to get something for Debbie and went over the curb and my tire went "POOF" Luckly i have 1 year road side svc from the mazda ppl so i just called them and they fixed my tire. Not such a good feeling though my poor baby got hurt...Wait im not done with my increadible night though....The reason i went to the main sanctuary was to get a plant that i had left and K&D so it was sitting nicely in my car and while i was driving home i made a u turn and my plant went all over my car....It had these little stones in it and well they are now covering my car. HAHAHA i just laughed i wasnt frustrated or anything i just laughed. Its nice to know that no matter what goes on in the world we always have something to look forward to. I'm happy that i was able to deal with last night so calmly. Thank you Jesus for that :) Now its time to eat some chinese...

Not really my thing.....

So I'm not really a blogger and i am sure that by the time i am done with this blog Maggie would of pointed out a bizzilion gramatical mistakes, but im okay with that. Im just going to write whats on my heart and see what happens :) ( I love you mags)
So thanks to Sera i have been listing to the podcast of Tim Chaddick and have been absolutly enjoying it. I have been feeling like i have not been getting enough of the word lately so i am totally stoked to be able to enjoy listing to really good teaching while working. I am lucky to be able to work at a place where i have my own office and can just listen to anything i want to.
God has been so faithfull to me in so many ways that sometimes well most of the times im like why??? I love when i get to sit back and acutually watch God bless me and not becuase i did anything good but just becuase im his kid and he loves me. Its hard for me to understand that kind of love i dont know why but it just it.
Its Wen. which means its Refuge night which means another night that i am going to be sooooooooo blessed.....
I love Jesus